Motherhood: Changes Incoming

I’ve been struggling with something the past couple of weeks.

Last summer, my life was FULL of activity and outings and margaritas by the pool.  I would go to church Sunday morning and pack three outfits to accommodate the array of things my friends and I could do (hiking?  beach trip? shopping? picnic?  pool time?).  I was surrounded by community.  I rarely slept more than 6 hours a night.  I grounded myself one day a week in order to do laundry, pet my cats, and catch up on sleep.  It was lovely.  My life was full and I was happy.

Things have changed a bit.  (Understatement?)  My priorities are 1. My Husband and 2. My baby, then all the rest of everyone else.  The bottom line is that my life is still full and I am so very happy in so many way, but things are different.  A summer with non-stop friends and socializing isn’t on the agenda, and it’s been making me anxious.

I am afraid that once Baby A gets here my friends will have already drifted so far away that no one shows up at the hospital to meet my little man.   (Or, you know, the rest of his life.)

There is no going back to summers like last summer… things are going to look a little different for me; but I still need friends. (My extroversion is not going anywhere)

I hope my friends are patient with me.  I hope that they’re understanding of my new role and new priorities (and new bed time).  I hope that they don’t give up on me and stop trying.  I hope that they believe me when I tell them that I want Baby A to grow up whilst in the midst of them.  I hope they give me a little grace through all the change and trust that I am still the same snarky giggle-fest.. even with a baby bump.

Baby Bump Friday: 22 Weeks

How Far Along: 22 weeks
Size of baby: 11 inches.  A spaghetti squash.
Obviously I had to google this.
Total Weight Gain: I’m at about 10 pounds.  (Thank you bowls of cookie dough ice cream.)
Maternity Clothes: One of the other pregnant women in my office is wearing the same shirt as me today…. I think it’s time for shopping.
Gender: Little Man Baby
Movement: The past couple of days I have been FEELING him move constantly but it’s becoming way harder to find him with my hand.  He’s becoming more active and he still has a ton of space to move around so it’s turned into one of those wack-a-mole games; wherever my hand is he kicks elsewhere.  Little bugger.
Sleep: SO GREAT.  I’m so comfy!!  This is what they meant by the 2nd trimester being so great.  I honestly feel like I could TOTALLY do this again, to which Mr. A reminds me that I was pretty miserable for a good 2 months…  Pssh, doesn’t matter!  I’m walking on sunshine baby.  SUNSHINE.
What I miss: This week didn’t make me miss anything really.  I’ve been kept pretty steadily provided with sweet tea and ice cream so I haven’t really noticed the missing of things.. I’m much too busy being happy and giddy over Baby A moving around and feeling so kick ass.
Cravings: Sweet things.  I wanted chocolate so badly yesterday afternoon I started going cube-to-cube seeking it out.  I am now THAT pregnant lady.
Symptoms: Euphoria?  1st Trimester Amnesia?   Wanting to gush about how HAPPY I AM all the time?  I’m like Eeyore but the opposite; I will tell you how great being pregnant is if you look at me for more the 3.4 seconds.  When I call Mr. A during the day it is most likely to tell him some mushy, happy thought I have had.  Sharing is caring, yo.
What I’m looking forward to: In two weeks Mr. A’s parents are coming up and we’re having a BIG OL’ family get together.  My family, his family, and the little family we’re making.. so cool.  I am REALLY like Mr. A’s family.  I love that they’re coming to hang out with us. (I think we might get Baby A’s crib too!)  (Oh!  I am REALLY looking forward to decorating his nursery.  AND sharing it with you all next week).
Story of the Week:  Mr. A is on summer break (being a high school teacher and all) so he’s been home hanging out, napping, doing things, and learning to cook; which is awesome.  However recently he has gone from being kinda bad at answering his cell phone to so bad at answering his phone it can take him 6 hours to call me back.  Totally ok now because I am just calling to tell him a bird is chirping and it’s making my cry from happiness, BUT I pointed out that when I call the doctors now I am almost immediately put through to Labor and Delivery “To Be Safe” and he should probably work on the phone thing so I don’t find myself in labor stranded somewhere.  Sometime I wish he WAS as connected as I was because if I miss a phone call– a facebook post, tweet, or MMS will totally get my attention.  How do you get a non-phone husband to be a better phone user?  (Besides throwing things at him, he apparently doesn’t appreciate that.)

Oy with the poodles already.

You know you’re having a rough day when in the first 20 minutes of your being in the office your boss stops by because she can tell by the email you just sent that you’re already stressed out, and it’s not even 9am yet.

Last week my eye started twitching. I didn’t write a single word last week. Work has been intense. I have been responsible for a big software switch over that was set to go live Friday… and the developer just didn’t have it done. Instead of launching the new system Friday, I spend the day going through his “done” product and sending him 37 bugs/errors that make the system unusable at this point…. it is going to be a long week.

I tried to spend the weekend NOT thinking about work, but come Tuesday morning I was a wonderful picture of dread and crankiness. I did not want to come into work today. (I am 100% writing this on my break in case you thought I was adding to my stress with procrastination and avoidance.)

This weekend, however, was wonderful. The whole newly-wed thing is basically the best thing in the world. Mr. A reads to Baby A every single night and it makes my heart melt. We spend a couple of hour Saturday registering for Baby A… which was SO much fun and a little stressful. It’s an intense thing to pick something out for someone you’ve never met and without much base knowledge on what products are good and will be used enough. Even after we were done in the store registering, I went back home and checked ratings on all the things we picked out and swapped out a TON of things for higher rated options.

My absolute FAVORITE things are the car seat and play-pen we picked out. To start with, the colors are AMAZING.  Bright, bold, happy.  The car seat is the kind that connects to a base that stays in your car, so it will be REALLY easy to get him in and out of cars and then we picked out a little stroller that the car seat snaps right into.  Totes the easiest.  The Pack n’ Play is going to be used as a bassinet at first, and will be really handy when we travel to San Diego at Christmas to visit Mr. A’s family.  It has a removable layer so when he gets older we can remove it and it can be a super awesome play-pen.   Basically I’ve researched myself into insane excitement.SO CUTE.  I can’t wait for him to get here.  He already seems so much more real now that we can call him by his name and not just “Baby”.

Some people have been asking about the registry, so I thought I would share a link…. you can look at ALL the cute wonderful things we picked out, because it was a total blast to do and short of pasting pictures of EVERYTHING into a blog post it would be easiest if you just check it out.

P.S. Mom’s did I get everything?  Did I get anything that actually sucks?  Is it normal to feel totally overwhelmed by all things baby will need?

20 weeks. (Oh Boy!)

We’re having a BOY!!!!!

I am so freaking excited, and a little nervous.  I mean, I know girl things!  What do I know about raising a boy?  I guess I’ll learn?

I’ve already told Mr. A he is responsible to make sure that when Baby A is a teenager he’s not stinky.  I think I have my bases covered.

How Far Along: 20 weeks
Size of baby: 6.5 inches.  A small cantaloupe.
Total Weight Gain: I’m at about 8 pounds so far, which is pretty good!
Maternity Clothes: I wear maternity pants constantly, and then not maternity shirts and dresses.
Gender: It’s a BOY!
Movement: Definitely feeling kicks.  Mr. A felt him for the  first time this week, which was AWESOME.
Sleep: So much better now that I have a body pillow.
What I miss: Margaritas on a hot day.  And sitting in a hot tub.
Cravings: Last night it was pizza… and sweet things.
Symptoms: Totally all types of achy.  My sciatica has flare ups that will make walking or standing REALLY painful for periods of time.
What I’m looking forward to: Getting to buy boy things!
The highlight of my life today was realizing that I am going to have two amazing guys to dress, and I have every intention of making them twins.  Last night after the doctors we went to Target and I was mostly unimpressed and uninspired by their baby boy clothes.  Everything was baseball or monkeys; which just wasn’t doing much for me.  Then this morning I bought Baby’s first pair of shoes (What up SLIP ON VANS FOR INFANTS) (I die.), and Mr. A has the SAME pair.  TWINS!!  JOY!!  Then I found a page on Baby Gap that was basically exactly what Mr. A wears.  Now I can’t contain my excitement.  My two boys are going to be THE CUTEST EVER.

Boy or Girl? That is the question.

Tomorrow is the day.

We finally get to stop referring to the kicking thing in my belly as “it” or “baby”.  We can start calling our baby it’s name.  We can start planning for our little guy or girl and it will feel infinitely more real.  I would like to fast forward please.

People always ask if we have a preference on gender.  My answer is to use quotation fingers while saying “we just want a healthy baby” (because that’s what you’re supposed to say and it’s 100% true) but Mr. A and I both have a soft spot for a girl.  I mean, we will be totally stoked for either, obviously…

Mr. A  has some crazy baby radar right now.  He spots the little families a mile away and he always gets so giddy and excited when we see small children; it melts me.  He gets excited for any baby but his face changes when he sees a girl.  There is a huge part of me that wants to see his face light up for our daughter like that every day. (Plus, I figure that my wanting a girl means I will have a boy.  Such is life.)

I just can’t wait to find out.

Alright people, guessing time.  Do you think Baby A will be a boy or a girl?

Here are some of the Old Wives Tales Gender Predictors that are supposed to predict, maybe they’ll help your guess.

  • The ring. This is a great one, take your wedding ring (if you have one) and tie it to a thread about 12 inches long. Hold the ring by the thread over your belly. If the ring goes in circles (round and round) you’re having a boy, if it swings side to side, then it’s a girl.  Result: Girl
  • Baby’s heartbeat. Supposedly a girls heartbeat is higher than a boys. A girls heart rate will be about 140 beats per minute, a boys will be below. Result: Girl
  • Your breasts. If your left breast is larger than the right, it’a a girl. Other way round, a boy! Result: Boy
  • The key. If you pick up a key, look and see how you picked it up. If you picked up by the thin end, it’s a girl, thicker end… a boy. If you picked it up in the middle, better sit down for this one! It’s twins! Result: Boy
  • Carrying position. This is a baby gender prediction that lots of people will recite to you. If you’re carrying your baby high in your tummy it’s a girl, lower down then it’s a boy. Result: Boy
  • Cravings. Are you craving sweets and chocolate, anything sweet? It’s a girl. Sour cravings? Lemons, limes, then it’s a boy! Result: Girl
  • Chinese Gender Chart. Legend has it that this chart was found in an ancient tomb in China and is supposedly based on the Chinese lunar calendar. Result: Boy

Alright, your turn.  Boy or Girl????


15 Weeks!

And then there was the time that I stopped looking fat and started looking pregnant. (I just said that like the Real World intro, FYI)

What up Baby Bump?

How far along?: 15w0d
How big is baby?: The size of an naval orange.  Little thing is 4 inches, which is insane to me.
Weight gain/loss?: I haven’t gained any weight so far.  Which is also kind of hard to believe because I get STARVING every 2-3 hours or so.
Stretch marks?: Nope.
Maternity clothes?: I have a favorite pair of maternity skinny jeans that I wear constantly.  All my shirts are still working.
Sleep?: Besides crazy dreams, I’ve been sleeping so so so great lately.
Food cravings?: Apple juice and apples.
Gender?: We find out June 23rd!  My mom is convinced it’s a girl, Mr. A’s dad is convinced it’s a boy.
Movement?: Just started feeling little pops and movements 2 days ago!
Belly button?: No change, but if Mr. A puts his finger in my belly button one more time “while he still can” I will cut him.
What do you miss?: Margaritas.
What are you looking forward to this week?: Tonight is date night, I love date night.

So last night I was texting with a bunch of my dear friends who are in Vegas (and it’s made me feel so much better about NOT being there).  As a general rule Nico, calls me to do his Bill Cosby impression when he’s been drinking and he did not disappoint.  We talked a little about my being pregnant, and he had some wonderfully encouraging things to say.  To start, he’s just really excited that one of his blog besties is having a baby, which makes me excited too.  He said that the best mom blogger he knows it Rachel, which is totally true.  Nico said Rachel is kick ass because she’s awesome and honest and just happens to be a mom.  Then he said that he knows I’ll be the same and that I will be able to stay myself (the self that has awesome friends like Nico) and also be a mommy.

So encouraging.

I know that things will looks a little different here at some points, mostly because the whole “baby” thing is so new and exciting.  I promise I won’t ONLY talk about baby.  I’m still the same old me, I’ll just also have a super awesome kickass baby strapped to me too.

P.S. I’m bring my 6 month old to Vegas next year.  Mr. A and I were talking about onesies baby should have for a Vegas trip.  Some contenders:

  • Mascot
  • Craps Deals  <– Totally Mr.A’s idea, and hilarious

State of Life

Whew!  Things have been a little on the busy side the past couple of weeks and the longer I go without updating, the harder it is to get writing again.  So today’s post is brought to you by the bullet point.

  • Mr. A and I moved into our new place 2 weeks ago.  We had the best help ever from friends.  I was basically not allowed to lift anything heavier than a broom….  we already have things on the wall and it feels like home.  I still can’t get over how much SPACE we have.  I have been in such tiny little places the past few years; having two full bedrooms, a dining room, and a long hallway feels very luxurious.  It’s also AMAZING to have a baby’s room.  Where baby will go.  Cause we’re having a baby.
  • We spent the first week snuggled on the couch without internet or cable watching Gilmore Girls.  It was his first time watching it, and he is OBSESSED now.  We’re well into the 2nd season already.  Mr. A says he better understands my snarky banter after watching it.
This is a face of joy as I finally get to brulee with a TORCH.
  • Last weekend was my bridal shower.  It was amazing and beautiful. (We each got to brulée or own Creme Brulée!)  My bestie was in town and so were Mr. A’s parents.  I basically love his parents to death, I am definitely getting lucky on the in-law front.  Bonus: His parents got along swimmingly with my family.  This is going to make life way more enjoyable (not that I thought they wouldn’t get along).
  • We are getting married in NINE days.  Nine.  Nine days.  Single digit.  I have all the things I need, and I am so freaking excited to marry him.
  • Baby has a new due date!  11/11/11 which means I am currently 14w5d.  I also started taking Gummy Prenatal Vitamins instead of normal ones, and my life just got way more happy.

    Totes an adult guys.
  • I got an email this morning that it was time to check-in to my flight for Vegas.  I might be 100% regretting my decision to sit this one out.  I am totally going to BiSC next year, and I’ll bring baby too.

Ok, so I think I want to open the floor up for questions. What do you guys want to know about that I haven’t talked enough about? Suggested topics: Mr. A, pregnancy, wedding, my thoughts on The Voice, my opinion of the season finale of Vampire Diaries, my favorite color.

11 Weeks.

This week was mostly nausea free!  Which is such a huge relief.  It meant that I was also back to running around after work visiting friends and going to dinners.  It felt good to be back, even if I would often crash immediately upon getting back home.  This week I’ve spent a ton of time in my apartment packing because Mr. A and I are moving tomorrow!!!!  (Don’t worry, I won’t be lifting any boxes.)  This morning I pointed out that this apartment will be where my tummy grows to gargantuan sizes and where we’ll bring baby home to from the hospital.  It’s crazy, and so exciting.

Monday, my lovely Grams took me maternity clothes shopping.  I hadn’t realized how gradually uncomfortable I had gotten in my clothes lately.  It feels so great to be in comfy clothes, and I feel decidedly cute again.  The next two big things, clothes-wise, that are on the agenda are a bridal shower dress for my shower in two weeks and then my wedding dress!!!  We’re getting married in less than a month!!!  Insert a ton of exclamation points.

There is so much coming in the next month, including my 2nd trimester which will be important because that’s when my energy levels should be back on the rise.  I will need all the energy I can muster.

This is what baby looks like this week, 100% more human and less like an alien.  With elbows and fingers, and all of it’s vital organs are established with its liver and heart doing tons of work already.  He/She is about as big as a lime.  Insane right?

Yesterday morning when I was getting ready for work I had this daydream of this little one being old enough to play soccer, 4 or 5, and our little family getting up early Saturday morning to go watch baby play.  Mr. A and I would sit on the sidelines in our lawn chairs, sipping coffee, wearing over-sized sweatshirts while we watch out little kid run around.  We’re going to be a family; this blows my mind.  I can’t wait.

10 Weeks

8 Weeks

10 weeks.

I am struggling guys.  Last week I felt so great, I thought my nausea was on its way out…. it came back with vengeance on Saturday.  Being sick all the time is starting to wear on my sunny disposition.  I feel cranky and tired.  I don’t feel like savoring this time, I want a freaking fast forward button.

And when I’m cranky I don’t want to write, I want to burrow in a pillow and sleep until it passes.

Until then, here are some adorable pictures of Mr. A and me from this past weekend.  We went on a little romantic get-a-way up the coast.  It was perfect.  I love him.


Ice Cream Cone have sounded amazing.
Beautiful Beautiful Ocean
Walking in the headlands


Mr. A and the llamas

First Purchases for Baby

Fact: Non-gendered anything baby related is super hard to come by.  It seems like everything is either pink with flowers and or blue with trucks on it.  Sigh.  Until we find out what we’re having (and yes, duh, we’re finding out) I’ve mostly been perusing pages of adorable baby things without being able to get anything.

Thank God for Etsy and shops like TheWishingElephant.

I mean, look at these.  I die.  The cuteness hurts.